Oh crap! I have made a STARTLING discovery. You know: you develop certain preconceptions of life and all that it brings. Then, quite out of the blue, something comes along that rocks your entire belief system. One of those pillars on which you base your life crumbles and then collapses, and you find yourself wondering why you didn't realise the obvious truth before. It happened to me yesterday; and do you know what that truth is.................?
.......it is FAR easier to put on weight than to lose it.
If you read my previous post, you will conclude that I have given myself a bit of an unhealthy holiday over the last few weeks, and as a result I am now weighing in at a whopping 17 stone 3 pounds. To save your fingers and toes, that represents a weight gain of half a stone. Bugger..............
In one very small way, putting on that much weight in such a short amount of time is quite impressive, but not good impressive. No prizes for guessing how this happened. Let's do the diet/exercise analysis:
I originally wrote this paragraph with the line 'my diet wasn't too bad'; but then I read it and I would like to amend that to a 'bloody awful'. I think that the conservative word to describe it would be 'unrestrained'. Although I stuck to three meals a day, they were meals comprising entirely of what I wanted rather than what I should have. In addition to the usual turkey lurkey in it's various guises (Christmas, sandwiches, stew, fricassee, surprise (I've got a surprise for you, we're having turkey tonight!! AAAAAAAGH!)), there were at least two Chinese takeaways eaten (actually three, if you count that two of them were eaten in one night), and I succumbed to what I think is the most unhealthy food in the world...pizza; and oh no, not one pizza; it was a two pizza deal with garlic bread and a portion of cheesy chips on the side....and a bottle of coke (in my slight defence, even I didn't manage to eat all that in one night, but I had a damned good go). If you are starting to wonder how it is I only put on 7 pounds, so am I!!
Exercise over the Christmas period is simple.......none.
I have very little in the way of excuse for this; nothing justifies what I have eaten, or the exercise I have not done. There is however positivity, and lots of it. First of all, I know why I did it. Christmas is a very busy, very tiring and at times very tough time for me; nothing I can do about it other than get on with it. I enjoy it, but at the same time it effects me negatively. One day (possibly next Christmas) I promise I will explain in more detail, but I hope for now you will forgive me for not elaborating any further. Suffice it to say that it will take me a while to get back to life as it was, in the same frame of mind that I had. Next time, I will be more prepared.
Secondly, I am still here, sat in front of my laptop, writing to you. Not once did I even consider giving up on this blog, on you.......on me. I am still going to do this, and I am still going to write about it. Life is tough, but by God I am tougher. My sister (breath of fresh air) bought me a spanking (?!) pair of running shoes (top present, bright orange........ooooh yes!) and I have already written up my running schedule for the next 65 weeks to build me up to London 2013 (only 65 weeks to go!). I have a badminton match on Thursday, and my first run will be mid-week next week, with a park run (more in another blog post) a week on Saturday. The fridge is devoid of nasties, and filled with goodies, and I am ready to both continue, and start again.
Positivity is an extraordinary thing; it is a strength in itself. When I think positively, talk positively, and truly believe what I am saying, I feel strength surge through me. Haven't done that for about three weeks.......and it feels good. I am prepared for what may be another backlash on next Tuesday's weigh in, but I am determined to rediscover the regime and mindset that saw me accomplish so much last year, One day at a time, one meal at a time. Tonight will be an easy half hour on the Wii Fit (don't want to overdo it with the match tomorrow), followed by salad and sausages; yum!
I ask you; don't stop believing in me.
9 comments:
Well hello there Reg... can I call you Reg? It really is very unfair to change your name years after knowing you. Anyway well done, had a brief look through your blog tonight, and I think you are doing a great job, keep it up. Christmas is always going to be bad news, so move on and start afresh.
You are probably wondering who I am by now, and just for fun I am going to let you guess....
In the meantime can I help??? I really think the secret to changing the way you eat is to start to enjoy the food you eat. And no I do not mean a diet of miniture heros and ice cream... but if you are eating steamed turkey and brocoli every day it is going to get pretty dull and pretty hard to stick with it. A few years ago I had high cholesterol and husband (soon to be ex husband now) who was ill so radically changed the way we eat. I will be the first to admit I never thought I would enjoy it and would miss pasta, butter (ok I did miss that!), bread etc... but I didn't! I never felt so healthy and had so much energy etc. Ok I realise I am starting to sound a bit Californian now so I shall leave it there..... but get back to me if you want to hear more. Good luck in 2012!
@Cupcake
I would love to hear more from you, but more than that I would like to know who the bejesus you are! I am guessing you got onto the blog via a message I sent to Mel on facebook. You are part of the university bunch, and unless it was a civil ceremony, the husband indicates you are of the female gender. From there I am stuck. Feel free to remain a person of mystery, and revel in the frustration of me not knowing!
I think you are right about finding healthy food that you enjoy, and I do have a number of 'go to' recipes that I can make in bulk and are super-healthy (spinach risotto....mmmmm). I find that planning my meals on the way home helps too, rather than getting home at half six with no idea of what I'm having, feeling too tired to plan, and then resorting to chips!
Sorry to hear about the husband becoming an ex; hope you're okay, and the impending ex-ness is a cause for optimism about the future rather than dwelling on the past.
Keep in touch, whoever the hell you are!
Hee, hee, how fun to have another commenter :-)
So, over Christmas, you splurged ... big deal! Now you're focussed again, and have your goals in sight, you can do it.
I won't ever give up on you :-)
W-A x.
The ever-lovely Mel has just alerted me to your blog and challenge. I could easily spend all day reading the whole thing, but need to work (boo!). So I'll just leave a comment here for now. Well done on your progress so far and keep at it! G x
PS I know who your other commenter is, but will leave them their secrets for now...
Thanks Gavin, and it's great to hear from you! SO exciting seeing the hit rate on the blog go up. As for not divulging the identity of the mystery person; you rotter! I have this ominous feeling whoever it is is going to enjoy the anonymousness and not tell me. Who the hell calls themselves cupcake???!
(by the way, a little aside; fancy celebrating our 20 year anniversary later this year by getting the band back together?).
Ali, thanks for sticking with me; knew you would! First run tomorrow morning (weather permitting); time to give those orange shoes an airing (although Clare wants me to wear surgical shoe-covers to stop me scuffing them). It is great to have more commenters (tripled in the last 24 hours!); just no talking amongst yourselves alright?!!!!!! xx
Awwwww Ady Blady, you are doing brilliantly & I am proud of the hard work you are doing, I can imagine the torture of watching everyone around eating their bacon & egg butties :)
As Wee Ali says, forget the splurge at Christmas, it comes but once a year & to say how hard you have worked up to the run of Christmas, I think its deserved.
Super enjoying watching the transistion to a svelte you :) x
Me again, I'm SO glad you didn't work out who I am, this is going to be fun (thanks Gavin for playing along...)
So yes you are right, I am female and I am part of the uni gang, so keep guessing. I LOVE the idea of a 20year reunion (has it been that long?) Jim is over from New Zealand in March or April so maybe we should combine it with that.
Oh and I call myself cupcake because I bake for a living these days.... that is your next clue, which probably won't help you much. And the fact that I bake will defo not help with your diet so enough about that.
Will post again soon with some recipe ideas maybe..
@Cupcake
Actually, I've cracked it Ms Cupcake; I know exactly who you are. I suppose it's possible that I am bluffing in order for you to let your guard down....
I know, scary that 20 years have passed since we started at Nottingham. A do would most certainly be a don't without Jim, so March/April it is (also gives me an incentive to look as svelte as possible by then!). We'll get chatting with everyone and sort out the where and when. You do realise at some point you may well have to divulge your identity; or do you intend to wear a balalaika(but of course I already know who you are...)? (oh, and yes; thanks Gavin for playing along....gnash gnash.....grind.....whimper....hard stare)
Always up for healthy recipes; really appreciate the help. Have a great weekend.
@Anonymous
Well, if you are who I think you are, you are stuck staring at me for most of the working day so you of all people deserve to see some progress! Thanks for the encouragement, now get back to work!!
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