Emotional

Yesterdays successful weigh in was an interesting experience, one which on reflection has clearly meant more than simply two pounds lost. I think this is the reason why.
I pride myself in being a giver; someone who tries to make the people he cares about feel special whenever the opportunity arises. The trouble is that it is rarely reciprocated. Don't worry; this isn't a feeling-sorry-for-myself post. I have long ago accepted the situation, so much so that if anyone tried to do anything now, I would just feel awkward; and anyway, whoever was to do it would have to REALLY know me well, and there aren't too many of those people around (I am going somewhere with this; really I am!).
So in actual fact, the only person who can do things for me is, well.....me! This is something that I don't do often. I don't believe it's a self-esteem thing (I don't deserve it and all that), I really like myself; it's just that I've spent so long putting other people first that I push myself down the priority list.
That's why this mission I've put myself on feels so different. For once I am putting myself first. What I am doing is for my benefit. Even the fact that I am writing a blog about it is something I am only sharing with very select individuals (and of those, only one is reading it). As a result, the success I have had - and hopefully will continue to have - is emotional, liberating, and very empowering.
Mushrooms on toast for tea tonight, and an hour on Wii Fit (not in that order). Now it's time for bed (said Zebedee......boinggggggggg!). Night night.