This slope is starting to feel a little slippery; not a great week. I am now weighing in at 17 stone 2.6. Unofficially that is a gain of 2.2 pounds, but frustratingly having to obey the rounding-up, rounding-down rules takes me from 17 stone, to 17 and 3 pounds. CRAP!!
I did a bit of soul-searching last night. Obeying the rules which have seen me get this far just seems to be so much harder at the moment, and I don't know why; it's pissing me off and making me angry at myself. I am still positive, and I can categorically say that the results of my weigh in have never been a surprise. I have just been struggling to exercise enough, and eat the right things; that is the bottom line.
So what secrets has this soul-searching uncovered? Well, not a lot to be honest. The task ahead of me is simple, and the way to achieve it is also simple. Two things however have upset my status quo quite a bit over the last couple of weeks. The first is mercifully temporary; I have a week off work this week, the build-up to which - as well as the week itself - has meant a pretty sedentary time of late. The second is going to be a more long term thing, and is probably bears the greatest responsibility for the last couple of week's slippage; Christmas.
Yes yes yes; I know. Christmas is over a month away; but let me introduce you to an Adrian Christmas. It begins with a ridiculously mad amount of preparation, a mad amount of fatigue at the end; and as for the middle, well that's just mad! I won't list all the duties here - at some point either this year or next we will have 'Christmas' as subject of the month! - but suffice it to say, I have to start now if not before.
For some time now I have been worried about Christmas, and the effect it will have on my resolve to chuck fatman for the infinitely more favourable territory of fitman. Of all the associations which are linked to the festive season; salad, exercise and abstinence are not on the list. With temptation and indulgence round every corner like a mugger, what would happen? So, the irony is that before Christmas has even begun, just the worry has de-focused me. I have stopped paying attention to what I have been putting into my body, and I have stopped exercising enough, and yes: I have even stopped posting regularly on here (I am starting to think that this blog is becoming both an indicator, and a lifeline for me). I need to get 'it' back.
I am not going to make a big fuss about it; I am not going to expend any needless energy on screaming and shouting about how things are going to change, I am simply going to get on with it. An hour on the Wii Fit tonight, and a particularly tough badminton match tomorrow night should kick things off; then it's down to me to keep it up over the weekend. There may well be a trip to TGI Fridays on Saturday night, tricky! Whatever the result on Tuesday - even if I put on weight again - I intend to be looking back on a much more positive and focused week.
2 comments:
Hey A ... A wise man (no, it wasn't you this time!) once said to me that it's easiest to loose weight if we are doing things we really enjoy, and I mean REALLY enjoy! The way you describe Christmas doesn't sound all that enjoyable (but maybe you were just tired and fed up) ... does it all have to be done in the same ole way? Yes, I'm playing devil's advocate, but you would expect no less from me!
Big hugs my dear ... call me anytime if it would help :-) You're doing so well, and maybe need a little reminder of how far you've come, and how proud I am of you, and how your and my hearts are extremely grateful.
W-A x.
@Wee_Ali
Thanks my dear. I always thought that there would be points like this, and the plan for this blog was to get an encouraging word when I needed it most; which is exactly what you have done.
The Christmas build-up can be a burden, and you are right; much of it I don't enjoy. But you are also right in that I was a tired boy when I wrote the post.
I do enjoy Christmas itself, but life is very busy at the best of times and festive prep throws in another five plates to spin. I guess it grates me that the things I like best about Christmas - togetherness, peace, family - don't have anything directly to do with much of what I do.
The positive thing I can certainly take is that I am slimmer and fitter than I was last year - mentally and physically - and as a result am already feeling more equipped to cope with it without the customary feeling of utter knackeredness!
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