I am a single man (ladies, form an orderly queue and take a number), and very happy to be so. Don't get me wrong, I would much prefer to be in a stable (holding a box of frankincense....see what I did there?!!), loving, and life-long relationship, but until that Miss Ying to this Mr Yang shows up (my money is on number 34) I am not just going to 'make the best' of the bachelor life, I am going to enjoy it. There are lots of perks about being on your own, perks which are given up when entering into a relationship (yes, you usually gain more - different - perks than you lose (not least of which is a snog from time to time!); so you are better off, but hey.... glass half full single guy talking here!). The decision making process is much simpler (thinking for one rather than two), and on those days when you have such an arse of a day you just want to get home, sit down and not talk to anyone; you can.
There are times when I feel the solitude though, and none more keenly than at Christmas. Now don't worry; I'm not spending the entire holiday moping around the house singing 'lone-leeeeeeeee, I'm so lone-leeeeeee'. The symptoms are neither chronic nor constant, but there are moments during Christmas which would be lovely to share with a special someone. The Pretenders have it right when they sing......
'The lights on my tree,
I wish you could see,
I wish it ev'ry day,
Logs on the fire,
Fill me with desire,
To see you and to say,
That I wish you merry Christmas,
Happy new year too,
I've just one wish on this Christmas eve,
I wish I were with you.'
The thought of cuddling with that special someone in a decorated living room, candles everywhere, presents under the sparkling tree, bottle of champagne fizzing away, Christmas Carols on the stereo or (not and!) a movie playing (take your pick) on the TV does make me wistful. The peel of the bells while walking through the middle of Chester on the way to midnight mass at the cathedral does make me wish there was someone with their hand in mine to share it with. All of the above would be really, really lovely.
Sadly this year - as for a few Christmasses past - it is not to be; maybe next year (I'll give it to someone special!!). Wistful and wishing I may be, but I am also determined that those feelings will not make me settle for anything less than the right relationship with the right person, and I am absolutely sure I will know beyond doubt when that opportunity comes along. Until then, the Christmas movies and cathedral bells will be seen and heard by just me!
In case I don't have the chance to say it before the big day; I would like to wish everybody a VERY Merry Christmas. My genuine and heartfelt wishes are with you for happy holidays, and an exciting, joyful and of course healthy new year. In with my seasonal wishes, I would like to thank you. Whether this is the first time you have stumbled across this blog, or your umpteenth visit, you have become a part of it; and on this, the first and only full calendar year of the challenge, I am so grateful to you all. This challenge would have been impossible without you reading about it, and now we are so near its conclusion - and with what I hope will be your continued support - I am confident of a successful 2013 (and you know what THAT means!).
0 comments:
Post a Comment