You will be relieved to know that this is the last of my philosophies. Delving into my mind is interesting, even cathartic for me, but you must be crying out for an escape from this madness to make a break for the real world.
So let's see, we've covered decisions, choice, love, life and even looked death square in the face. Whether you've learned something for you, who knows; but you should certainly have learned a few somethings about me. That said, there is still one thing; one important something that brings all my philosophies together; that runs through them all. Keeping it real. This is not an easy one to explain (I confess I almost gave up writing on more than one occasion, opting to just leave my philosophies as they are), but here goes.
How often do we have unrealistic expectations from life, setting ourselves up for a massive fall when we totally, utterly and prematurely commit our entire soul to something which when it doesn't happen, totally and utterly devastates us? How often do we avoid the truth, the obvious reality that is staring us in the face because we are too scared to stare back? How often do we have total ignorance of ourselves, our very own character; and it comes as such a shock to us when something we assume will be simply 'water of a ducks back' ends up hurting us to the core.
I am not saying that ambition, hope, or even fantasy is a bad thing; far from it (have I told you about my publishing-a-best-selling-book-from-this-blog-it-being-picked-up-by-Hollywood-and-Jim-Carrey-plays-me-in-his semi-serious-Truman-Show-role dream?...no?.....I probably won't bother then....); we need to set our sights high and reach for the stars. All I am saying is don't be ignorant, especially when our hopes and dreams are centred around an unlikely reality.....
Love - I commit to love wholly and completely; I accept that this is something I must do to experience true love, and yet I am aware of myself, and prepared to take the risk. I also know myself well enough to know how I will cope should something go wrong, so I can be reasonably accurate about just how big of a risk I am actually taking
Decisions - I am not so blinded by hope and desire that I dismiss the possibility of my decisions being wrong; and again, I know myself well enough to know I can cope if the worst happens
Life - To be lived with eyes wide open; I may on occasion hide things from other people, but I will never hide it from myself
Death - I don't obsess about it, but I don't purposefully avoid it. Like I said, hide myself from nothing.
If you think I am making this sound easy, talking about it is not a problem; living it, is. Maybe it is something to be continually striven for and occasionally but not always achieved. Getting carried away is exciting, tempting, even intoxicating! I guess all we can hope for is a reality check to bring us down to earth before leaving orbit where the fall could be really damaging.
Does that make any sense? (hope not; wouldn't want to change things at this stage of the blog - har-dee-harr). Well, at least I know what it is I am saying, even if no one else does!!
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